I need help.

No, I don't have any huge problems with drugs or anything like that, but still this problem may ruin my life. Dramatically stated, that is.
Let me explain: while typing this post, I just finished looking random stuff up on youtube, am tweeting (follow me if you want: eva_lazar), checking facebook every few seconds, am texting, and most of all, I'm dreading Friday.
Not just the song, even though that is rather dreadable, but because I have a test.
And I am supposed to be studying for it right now.
But I'm not.
Because I'm a procrastinator.

In Holland this wasn't such a big deal, I would wait untill the night before, and then cram really hard, but here in Sweden that simply is not an option: Every single thing here is in Swedish, so apart from actually understanding the stuff I have to study, I also have to translate every word I don't understand (which are a LOT, trust me!), remember these words, figure out how to make a summary I can understand, and THEN study the material.
I started this schoolyear really well, doing everything perfectly, and the motivation is still there, but I just can't seem to get myself to work!

That's why I need help. Anyone who can give me the golden tip on how to study could be my saviour because I'm really scared that I won't make it through this year.

Just needed to share this, like most things on this blog, and now I'm going to blankly stare at a list of words I have to know. Wish me luck.
Oh, and listen to this song, it's one of the only songs I can listen to while studying without getting all caught up in the music: Liar Liar - Christina Grimmie

xx Eva

I am weird, I know, but...

I really, really don't like it.
I don't like it when people call me perfect, amazing, awesome, or even kind, funny, smart or pretty. It's not that I can't take a compliment, I just smile, say 'thanks, you too!' or 'thanks!', depending on who gives the compliment and how I feel.
The thing that annoys me, is that I don't feel like these things fit me.
Perfect? I am far, fár from perfect. If someone calls me this, I have the feeling that with every 'un-perfect' thing I do, I let them down...
How I come to this?
Let me tell you.
Since a short while, I have a boyfriend. Yup, that's right, me, the undatable girl finally has found her first boyfriend!
But anyway. He is just the sweetest thing, and he calls me all the things mentioned above. Also, there are several others who apparently think I'm worthy of these words.
But honestly, I just think people use these words too easily: A perfect person doesn't have bad hair days, doesn't breathe heavily after going up a couple of stairs, is capable of talking Swedish fluently after half a year in the country....
And does a pretty girl have a huge nose, or does a kind person secretly dislike people? I don't know, it just annoys me....

When you read this you will probably either think: ok this is a really random text which doesn't make any sense, or: be glad that people tell you these things, and believe me, I am, but as I said, I just feel that people over-use these words, making them rather insincere in the end.

The other way around as well though: 'Oh, I HATE little kids!' 'I hate water, it doesn't taste like anything!' 'I hate my parents sometimes.'
I can't stand those kind of things: Hate is a strong word, it means you will never EVER like whatever it is you 'hate', no exception. At least, that's what hate is in my opinion. That's why I usually use the word dislike or something similar.

That was my rant on how the wordchoice of certain people annoys me, hope you feel the same way or at least understand how I'm feeling, and if not that's cool too, everyone has their own opinion right? =)

Here is a song which is rather fitting to the theme, to make this post worth posting haha:
Hate (I Really Don't Like You) - Plain White T's

Ok bye now!

xx Eva